My life has been a complete mess, but it seems to be working great this way. I’ve been so busy lately.. it just seems as though everything is happening all at once and I’m just trying to keep up. This semester is finally winding down…which means I’ll finally get to relax. Next week alone I have one 10 page & one 5 page paper due..fml! But then I’m off to the wonderful Vegas Thursday night. I need to get away for a bit, so it’ll be nice.
I can’t wait for these to be over so I can just relax and work & not have to worry about deadlines and all the stuff that comes along with school. I feel like lately my emotions have just been all over the place. I’ve been so up & down with everyfuckingthing that I can’t even handle it.
I think this week especially I’ve just been feeling like blahhhhhhh. Nick comes home tomorrow or today from florence and I’ve been feeling sick over it. I thought I would be so excited but were just in such a weird place & I have no idea what to expect. I don’t know. I’m not sure if I’m just making too big a deal of all this but things just really aren’t the same anymore. I just can’t do this. I don’t even know if he wants too see me or what, its just all so weird & so blahhh.
So much to do this weekend and next week & so little time. I hope this weekend comes & goes quickly so I can go Vegas and not worry about a damn thing. I wish Katie was coming home tomorrow too. I miss my best friend. I miss being happy & not worrying about some asshole guy. Things we will be from here on out. I will no worry & stress over something that doesn’t matter. Happy here I comee =)
“Sometimes we need to stop analyzing the past, stop planning the future, stop figuring out precisely how we feel, stop deciding exactly what we want, and just see what happens.”—Carrie Bradshaw - Sex & The City (via jazzyjenn)
“When I was 5 years old, my mother always told me that happiness was the key to life. When I went to school, they asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up. I wrote down ‘happy’. They told me I didn’t understand the assignment, and I told them they didn’t understand life.”— John Lennon (via inthecityandlost)